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gementSo, I'm home sick from work today. I'm honestly sick, as in just too dizzy and nauseous to be effective in my stressful office job.
Which leaves me taking a guilt-free day at home, still quite functional enough to work on the job application that has been keeping me from posting for over a month.
That I haven't mentioned on LJ in any way whatsoever, because I've been being quiet about it.
I've been being quiet about a lot of things on LJ. I think I'm going to stop that. I'm not sure how it will turn out.
The long and short of it is, despite the fact that I just got an excellent performance review and a raise, I'm not cut out for this line of work (Purchasing). The aggressive "Let's make a deal" attitude, the extraordinarily vague requirements, the grueling deadlines, and the crushing workload are just... well, it's a lot of things I'm not suited for.
That and I work for a company that puts about 90% of its products into tanks and bombers, and I'm not really comfortable with that as a lifestyle choice.
So, as the company gears up for relocation to another city where I would have to pay rent (I currently live with my mom), I'm taking the opportunity to gracefully bow out.
If I can ever get myself to do the flipping application for the Seattle Public Library, which is, as far as I can tell, my dream job.
Another thing I'm working on is the all-or-nothing attitude that tells me once I start talking about something in LJ, I have to do a dissertation on it. In defiance of that instinct, this is me ending the post right now. I'll write more later. But I need to learn this stopping thing.
Which leaves me taking a guilt-free day at home, still quite functional enough to work on the job application that has been keeping me from posting for over a month.
That I haven't mentioned on LJ in any way whatsoever, because I've been being quiet about it.
I've been being quiet about a lot of things on LJ. I think I'm going to stop that. I'm not sure how it will turn out.
The long and short of it is, despite the fact that I just got an excellent performance review and a raise, I'm not cut out for this line of work (Purchasing). The aggressive "Let's make a deal" attitude, the extraordinarily vague requirements, the grueling deadlines, and the crushing workload are just... well, it's a lot of things I'm not suited for.
That and I work for a company that puts about 90% of its products into tanks and bombers, and I'm not really comfortable with that as a lifestyle choice.
So, as the company gears up for relocation to another city where I would have to pay rent (I currently live with my mom), I'm taking the opportunity to gracefully bow out.
If I can ever get myself to do the flipping application for the Seattle Public Library, which is, as far as I can tell, my dream job.
Another thing I'm working on is the all-or-nothing attitude that tells me once I start talking about something in LJ, I have to do a dissertation on it. In defiance of that instinct, this is me ending the post right now. I'll write more later. But I need to learn this stopping thing.
