Guilt-free sick day, and late-breaking news.

[gement]

So, I'm home sick from work today. I'm honestly sick, as in just too dizzy and nauseous to be effective in my stressful office job.

Which leaves me taking a guilt-free day at home, still quite functional enough to work on the job application that has been keeping me from posting for over a month.

That I haven't mentioned on LJ in any way whatsoever, because I've been being quiet about it.

I've been being quiet about a lot of things on LJ. I think I'm going to stop that. I'm not sure how it will turn out.

The long and short of it is, despite the fact that I just got an excellent performance review and a raise, I'm not cut out for this line of work (Purchasing). The aggressive "Let's make a deal" attitude, the extraordinarily vague requirements, the grueling deadlines, and the crushing workload are just... well, it's a lot of things I'm not suited for.

That and I work for a company that puts about 90% of its products into tanks and bombers, and I'm not really comfortable with that as a lifestyle choice.

So, as the company gears up for relocation to another city where I would have to pay rent (I currently live with my mom), I'm taking the opportunity to gracefully bow out.

If I can ever get myself to do the flipping application for the Seattle Public Library, which is, as far as I can tell, my dream job.

Another thing I'm working on is the all-or-nothing attitude that tells me once I start talking about something in LJ, I have to do a dissertation on it. In defiance of that instinct, this is me ending the post right now. I'll write more later. But I need to learn this stopping thing.

Comments

[pamc.livejournal.com]

Seattle Libraries are in threat of being shut down... wouldn't go there.

Can you move out of purchasing and into management?

[gement.livejournal.com]

Management in this setting is a prospect that fills me with creeping horror. The major problem with Purchasing is that it isn't structured enough; I end up viciously sorting my office supplies to placate my OC impulses in the face of whirling chaos.

Management feels like even more of the same.

While I know their budget's tight (closures, etc) I also know that SPL is constructing a lot of new branches right now, so by the law of manpower they have to be budgeting for some new hires, right? Right? *nervous*

[plantae.livejournal.com]

*cheers for the ferret*

[corivax.livejournal.com]

Good luck with your job application. Yuck.

It'd be nice to see more about your life in general on lj, of course. But you knew I'd say that. :)

[sistawendy.livejournal.com]

1) vorona works at SPL. Maybe you should talk.

2) Gambatte!

3) . o O ( Oh please, let the ferret land a job here. )

[gement.livejournal.com]

Thanks for the tip, I'll check with Vorona.

[sistawendy.livejournal.com]

She's Good People.

[dorcas.livejournal.com]

i hope you're feeling better!

the move sounds like a very convenient time to bow out. i will cross my fingers for you, you'll find a good job (if it's the public library is the dream job then i'll definitely be crossing my fingers for that.)

great to hear from you, things will work out.