gement | I want people to come see me. I think.

This was supposed to be a bubbly happy "Housewarming next friday!" post, except I'm not feeling bubbly or happy, and I spent all day poking at my computer again, which does not feel relaxy or destressy at this point, just icky and pointless. My ride for tai chi did not communicate that he wouldn't be available again this week.

I woke up with the purpose of doing the dishes, doing a little of the raking in the yard (but not a lot, just 20 min or so), tutoring kids, and going to tai chi in the evening, all of which would have made me feel better. None of which happened. I spent the morning reading about Wikipedia editing culture and etiquette and the afternoon playing a desperate assortment of games that have failed to amuse or distract. And then the ride wasn't there, which makes three weeks straight that I've missed.

And I've long since given up on "Spring Break is when I get to go to Tahiti and live life as it's meant to be!" I've let go of "It's when I voyage to the homeland to catch up with my family." I've accepted the futility of "It's when I do all the organizing that I should have been doing all along," and I recognize the mathematical impossibility of "It's when I see all the people I haven't seen in three months."

But I'd like to see some of you. And I'd like to not have the same damn level of There's-Something-Better-To-Be-Doing-With-My-Time stress as I do mid-quarter, because then it's devastatingly clear that it has nothing to do with grad school, it just has to do with my personal defects. Can you tell I'm having a bad day?

But this post is supposed to be about my party. So. This is technically that house swarming I meant to have in September or October.

This Friday evening, that being March 24th, I would like it if people would come to my house for a mellow get-togetherish thing starting at 4 or 5 or whenever people get off work. Noise must wind down by 10 and I must kick people out by 11, but since I start dozing at about 9:30 I don't think that will be much of a problem. I have sparkling cider and lemonade, and I can make pasta. If you want there to be more food or beverages or what-have-you, please bring them.

Here are my address and current contact information. If I don't have you friended, drop a comment below or write to the LJ e-mail and I'll get back to you. In fact, drop a comment or call anyway, so I have a sense of who's coming.

I doubt the attendees will overflow the house capacity, so feel free to tell my other friends who don't LJ. I may or may not throw another thing later for those who can't make it. Feel free to drop me a line even if you're not coming, and know that even if I don't have the stomach to reply, I feel so happy to hear from people that sometimes I sniffle with joy.

I apologize to those of you who have phoned or otherwise tried to initiate contact in the last week. I ... haven't been able to face checking voicemail or answering the phone very often. I don't know how much of this is decompression and how much is depression. Every day is itself. I've just wanted to throw some of them back lately.